Monday, June 4, 2012


What an amazing day!!! I am so excited for the future this fall 2012 and beyond. I am stepping out on faith in a new business venture and God is placing all the right people in my life. Its taken a lot of weeding out the negative people, the ones who do not have the same integrity and basically starting all over at point one.

Today I had a beautiful bridal consultation with my June bride and we were talking about how some bridemaids become maidzillas, making everything about them, trying to take the spotlight, and just not being there for the bride in one of her most important roles in life......a bride.

This really got me thinking.......are YOU a friendzilla? Do you focus on yourself and are to blinded by your own problems in life to see when your friend needs you in her moment in life. During her own storms and darkness? Sometimes we must take a step back to see through the glass clearly. Then be there no matter what for our friend. Taking on that role and jumping when she says jump. Being that ear to listen to and not just running your mouth all the time.

I challenge you to do one thing this week for one of your girlfriends that will make her feel special. Make her family dinner, so she doesn't have to cook. Send her a cute card in the mail ( everyone loves getting REAL mail), or buy her a cupcake or chocolate and drop it by with one of your favorite chick flicks.

Be the friend you want to have.

Anyway....just my thoughts for today!

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Finding your Northern Star

So here is my devotional for today, inspired by today's sermon.

 " Finding your Northern Star"

When does a star shine it's brightest? In the DARKNESS!!!!

When we are at our lowest and in the midst of darkness, God will place a shining star to guide our way. I have to be honest some of the best marketing ideas I have every come up with , were in my lowest moments financially. Would I have come up with those amazing ideas if I had not been pushed to a place with no other options? Maybe, Maybe not. I could have sat around cried and go upset ( which sometimes I did) and been so blinded by my own self pity that I didn't search out those stars. Instead I opened up my mind and vigorously searched for a STAR.

When we are in our darkest time, when we want to give up we must search to find that guiding star and follow up.

Our desire for change must be stronger than our desire for comfort!!!

That star will be what molds you, will you let the darkness mold you negatively or will you seek out the bright star and let that guide you into a new place in life?

Its your choice, you can blindly walk around in the darkness as long as you want, prolonging your blessings OR you can refuse to be overcome and search out your Northern Star!!

Prayer for today

" God I ask you to place a bright point of direction in my life, give me vision for the future. Let my will for your plan in my life be stronger than my comfort."


I have started this online journal in the hopes that my life will somehow be a comfort or encouragement to someone out there. Sometimes we get so focused on our own life, we forget that their are others out there who are fighting their own battles, going through struggles, frustrations, and day to day issues. This is not my place to just whine but I will openly share things I am going through , again in the hope that maybe my little small life can help one other person.

A little about me, I am firstly a mommy to the most amazing two beautiful perfect baby boys, who surprisingly and unplanned came 10 months and 3 weeks apart. Yes, being pregnant for almost 2 years defiantly changed me. Every day they teach me more about myself, how I react to the unexpected and I believe any mother can testify that having children is walking and waiting for the next unexpected thing to happen. They are my joy but also the hardest thing Ive done in my life, yes I admit it ( judge me) being a mommy is hard. I wouldn't change it for the world but anyone who says its not work, welllllll they don't have kids yet.

Secondly I was a wife for nearly 10 years, my husband and I met and eloped 3 months later during a Florida hurricane. The Florida cheerleader and the hunky German imported car developer. Even though we have grown apart, I look back at falling madly in love with him in the beginning, good memories, and will always be grateful to him for my beautiful boys.

End of summer 2011 the day before my oldster's 2nd birthday, I lost our little girl Layla Kay in my second trimester of pregnancy at home alone. That event will forever change who I am because apart of me died with her.

So in 3 years I have had THREE pregnancies, been in a horrible wreck, 2 emergency c-sections 10 months apart, nearly lost my first baby after 33 hours of home birth, next had one baby in ICU, got divorced, moved into my own home, lost a child, opened a business, and now launching a second business the LARGEST of my career.......amongst this my business has been attacked through malicious gossip and slander.....( will get into that more sometime).

How have I handled all this????  DID I HAVE A CHOICE? NO! When life happens its how you react that proves your character. Have I had ruff times, times where I wanted to fall asleep and not wake up? YES....Ive cried in the shower for hours after putting the babies to sleep, refuse to talk to God because I was angry, and then tried to be a workaholic to just forget all personal emotions.

Which has led me to one conclusion. I am who I am because of HIM! My relationship with Jesus will never end, He is the only thing in my life that is consistent. The miracles and blessings in my life are directly handed to me from Him.

Every single thing that has happened to me has led up to the biggest blessing in my life. My new business venture. I have taken the negative things that have happened to me and have turned them into the most positive thing.

" When you REALLY want something you WILL find a way....if not you will find an excuse"

So here is the beginning of my journal and devotional blog. I hope that I can somehow bless even one person. Be an encouragement in the darkness, a laugh in the midst of chaos, and a shoulder to cry on.........

I invite you on this journey if you so choose to walk with me